the lovely long lazy saturdays

Am bang in the middle of a lovely day, it's saturday, I had a really good dream (no secrets divulged) last night so i awoke with a smile on my face, got up, went to the farmers orgasmic market, got the car washed, (fuck have i not got the most exciting life?) played basketball with cathy for an hour, read the times, ate a big cherry muffin, and now i'm fucking about surfing stuff and updating this blog yoke.

Was reading a sopranos site and apparently miss melfie has diagnosed tony as a sociopath... they must be everywhere those sociopaths, i did an online test to see if i am one too but dissapointingly i'm just a normal average mick..... it would be exciting to have something like that to describe meself, currently i can be described as man, dad, player, coach, husband, fecker, tosser, gobshite, lunatic, friend, chairman, supporter and many many more, but none of them have as many letters or are as exciting as sociopath.... maybe i should take a different test?

Control what i can!

God it's been a topsy turvy and frustrating week,
I love to be in control and i hate it when I don't have any, I hate it when there's nothing else to do but wait, I bloody have to be at something, and right now i'm not to hot at relaxing!

I get frustrated at myself for never quite figuring out what to call the programmes I deliver, I have various names for the different, but i still feel i'm missing out on creating a "difference" between me and others in the market.

I have to find that uniqueness, that thing that sets me apart, that reason why people will want to deal with me rather than who ever tries to sell to them, what is it that sets me apart, what can i do to empahsise that difference, I'm not the first to deal with sales, management, personal development, goal setting, comunication skills, coaching and the like, but i do have a unique mix and way of putting these things across, i just don't know how to describe it in a way that will set me apart.

That's it now!

There's to be no more Keira Knightly pics uploaded on this site, enough is enough! This started life as a porfessionalish kinda blog thing and has morphed into a wanton Keira appreciation society, ....well it has to stop. The movie "holes" was on last night...honest to god i only sat down to watch it for 2 minutes.... but she draws me in!

Today was just a bloody brilliant day, got so much done, the world is a pretty happy place this evening, have now a vast amount of work to do over the next few months, but i have a week in Paris coming up in 3 weeks, and 3 weeks after that i have 4 nights in New York... so in fairness my life is great at the moment, If i could only get over this Keira Knightly photo thing now i'd be sorted!

designing and building things is class!

this is going to be the new landsdowne road, somebody though it out and drew it, and they go and build it then (overcoming lots of obstacles on the way)

but it will be done and it looks great, i have been wondering exactly what newton performance coaching will look like over the same time period, it definately has the potential, i attended a seminar today and realised that i am a much better coach, trainer, presenter than i had previously given myself credit for...

so i want to finish the design stage (actually it's finished) apply for planning permission from myself and get on with building the thing, while taking care of the knitting on a day to day basis in the meantime.

the business will have about 17 employees, operate in Ireland north and south, deliver fantastic customer experiences, inspire people, operate in the public and private sector, treat it's people superbly, be extremely profitable and work in the areas of mamagement, sales, personal development, communication and whatever evolves over the next 5 year. Well that's what i'm applying for planning permission for!

There will be 3 seperate income streams.

1. Me. The work i do delivering and speaking.
2. 10 trainers / coaches delivering programmes around the country.
3. The sales of products, DVD's, Books, Workbooks, Coaching manuals etc.

This is not going to happen by accident, any more than landsdowne road will, but it will happen.

ear ear!

It's nothing short of astonishing how some people can provide instant analysis on something you have only just begun to explain..... or maybe i'm wrong and the world is full of clairvoyant geniuses after all.

Brokeback!

Went to see it on Thursday night..... it was so good.... do yourself a favour and just go!

a sweet weekend.......

I had the lovliest weekend, a lot of chilling, a few duties to do, a good dollop of fun, everyone in my house is in great form at the moment, it's lovely.

The fact that the heating went on Friday and we all spent most of the weekend in one room with a big fire may have had something to do with it, lots of warmth, lots of food, enough of everything, as a family we are really priveleged just as long as we know it and remember it.

the trocaire adverts highlighting child labour on the radio and tv are really getting to me, they really are brilliant and make you take stock and have a long love at your own kids and remember how fucking lucky we are to live where we do, there are millions of children Joy and Cathys age working horrendous hours in dangerous conditions for fuck all.

the question is what can one individual do about such things?

weird world

god it's not particularly easy, just back from a long meeting, today started at 7.00 and ended at 1.10, I have no idea how it got to be march already, there apparently is some research that explains how time moves faster as you get older, I've never seen it, but i know for sure that i have never ever had to manage my time as carefully as i do these days.

so much has already happened this year, i wish i felt a bit more "in control" but it seems that it's not going to happen, the nest few months seem even busier than the ones gone by.... i look back at my time working for various companies and simply marvel at how laid back life was......how there was time for coffee and spinning round the place and perhaps in 3 years time i;ll be doing exactly the same thing....jesus i hope not....if that was the case..what would be the point.....sleep beckons..... night

I never want to grow up!

As I get a bit older it seems to me that I have a fierce fear of getting a bit bland, of even becoming beige, losing the edge, getting a bit predictable.
I need an edge to keep me feeling alive, to feel vibrant I want to have the potential for pretty much anything going on in my life.
I don't really do "safe" very well and I have been doing safe and careful and secure for a fair while now. THe business is going really well, all my relationships are in good nick, my head is straight, money is plentiful, and yet i have a yearning. a yearning to have a right go at something, to do something a bit mad that will again drive me right out of my comfort zone.... i need to push the boundaries of a few things, to redefine the terms.
It's time for me to be a bit controversial again, to get a bit dangerous, to assert myself...watch out world!!!!!!

I blame the Kaiser Chiefs myself

Mother of God...... a real riot, it was inevitable really.

Is there no lengths to which the Irish Govt will not go in order to appease the DUP?

Have we no gumption at all, are we happy to allow the picture of a man who orchestrated the Dublin bombings be carried past the GPO and celebrated as a victim?

No side should be allowed to parade it's pain as a badge of honour, of course it's going to cause trouble.

I love Ulster meself, grand spot, but for gods sake, why would we be allowing Frazer and his bigotted fellow travellers down the street.

I totally condemn the rioting, it was caused mainly by a few RSF members, and then everyone with a grudge of any description joined in....

in a way Roy Keane has saved the country again, you see if Celtic had not signed Roy, and played him aganst Clyde, then they would have been playing a cup 1/4 final yesterday, which would mean that Frazers (pub at top of o'connell st) would have been packed with every looney north of the liffey...and with a few bevvies on they would all have joined in too..and as the mere sight of a union flag or a prod drives these nutters over the edge... things would have been much worse.... so in effect Roy saved Dublin (feck off..it's as credible as the "roy dragged us to Japan on his own shite we've had to listen to)

McDowell should resign for two reasons

1. For allowing this march in the first place.
2. For then failing to ensure it was policed correctly.

we'll have to enter your man in the next world wheel barrow throwing championships.

the spice of life......

As hard as it is to believe, I've been accused of only posting pictures of attractive females on here, even though there are several pics of myself....

so here's a cool guy from a cool movie... now no more complaints!

Sometimes I cannot see the range of my knowledge and abilities, sometimes I simply do not see that other people do not know the things that I know, things around human performance, sales performance, management performance and mental preperation.

I fail to realise that others have not taken every decent self help book of the last 20 years on board, I fail to realise that I have read, listened to, studied and taken courses for the last 10 years striving to become that which I am becoming.

I don’t appreciate that I am well into the top 1% in the area of human performance, political skills and understanding and using perception.

I try to tie up every single end whilst heading off to speak to a group of unit managers who likely have been exposed to very little of this ever in their lives.

I have lived, sold, bought, fought, failed, lay in victory, clenched my fists in anger, in determination. And all the while I have been wide open to the learning, always open to the learning.

What I am looking at is a complete misjudgement of the groups I go in front of,…. The very fact that they are there means they are already on board.

I need to quickly establish my credentials, and then get stuck into it all.

Made every mistake it’s possible to make.
I’ve worked extensively in every area I coach
This stuff was always my dream – I always wanted to do this.

where's the buzz?

I need a positive buzz from somewhere quick.... I have been doing too much work with individuals and one fairly unresponsive group....and it does not give me the buzz I need to operate at my best.

Plus I just got bad news on a contract I was 90% confident of getting.

ah well.. I have battled on through all that work and can invoice it tomorrow... even if it does not inspire me at least it still pays well.... I guess that's what lawyers and accountants feel like the whole time.

I'm sure theres a fascinating job just around the corner...... apart from that.... personally I have been feeling overwhelmed with all the expectations of me (realistic and otherwise) and have a to do list that is just as long as anything at work.....

This weekend i'm going to get a well deserved rest.....

Stranger and stranger.

It's hard to contemplate the misery that must be life inside some peoples heads.

It's hard to understand what horror must be in there.

A fella once told me that the inside of his head was like a bad neighbourhood....it was dangerous to go in there alone.

There's something weird in a society where over 500 (at least) people a year take thier own lives.

Is it a lack of connection? Is it the new focus on the individual rather than community? Is it pure selfishness? I really don't know.... all i know is that connections are important - Community is important - selflessness is important - appreciation is important -

I wish the world was a bit kinder!

My first ever completely wireless broadband blog

That's the first ever edition of playboy.... you might recognise the person on the cover.
and this is my first ever completely wireless blog..... did one through the mobile before christmas....but this is broadband baby.... i love the freedom of it...

watched that Pride and prejudice with Keira tonight....it was really good..

now i'm off for a surf

stills from the DVD

The guy who is doing the promotional DVD for me has sent me a few stills from the shoot, don't I look only gorgeous?

If i had to guess what age this guy is I'd have to say somewhere between 32 and 35.

25 WOULD BE FAR TOO BIG AN EXAGGERATION TO BELIEVE!

The dreaded NLP word!

Imagine you'd never met a green person before, and suddenly you are walking down the street and you see two green people approaching, they jump on you, give you a few thumps and steal your wallet.

A few weeks later you are out walking again...when what comes around the corner but two green men.....

What do you do?....

a. Run like hell?
b. Think.... well the aforementioned green men are probably not representative of the green population as a whole and thus i can be confident that it's safe to walk right past them.

truth is..... most people would run like hell.... i know i would....

My initial experiences with NLP were awful..... I met some people who raved about it ... then i did a one day course and nearly got sick.... then i met another person who was mad into it and nearly gawked all over again.

So why have I just booked a six day NLP course.

a couple of reasons.

1. I can only assess things by experiencing them....if i don't have the experience of something...thyen no amount of scientific proof will change me.

2. it is unfair to make judgements on the basis of very limited or filtered experiences. As i get older i see more and more how people make definate judgements based upon very limitied experience....i don't want to be like that.

3. NLP is becoming much more mainstream and lucrative.... all the time i notice that NLP is mainstreaming itself into a recognised and except technique or skill. like things psychotherapy, or customer service, things that were not recognised previously are now the sources of mainstream income... like ringtones and crazy frogs.

4. I also ned a fresh dive into the "personal development" world myself and i have heard many good things about the 2 guys who run the course.

And so I may be like St Paul on the way home from Damascus in a few months, evangelically expounding the virtues of the NLP thing that i previously dismissed and even despised, if i'm not i'll have got through a fierce amount of time and money discovering that it's all Bullsh*t

but then as they say themselves, there is no failure, there's only feedback!

give my head peace.

am addled, have quite a lot of real work to do, but am being dragged over coals regarding the voluntary work i do as well, I would tell them to just shove it except it's not really my style, i am dealing with some fairly blue A type characters and seeing as how i have difficulty with those type of people anyway, dealing with them through issues that i don't really have the resources to cover sometimes makes me want to feckin thump someone.

some people seems to think that if you are not frowning,. grimacing, screaming and bleeding... that your not really trying....i prefer to do my business with a smile on my face....and sure i'm not the detail king of the north west,.. well i can still get most projects delivered on time..... i gave up on that trying to be perfect lark years ago....and i have no intention of going back.....

I'll be 41 soon.....that's fierce old!

I pledge alliegiance to the Flag

Those who are really running the world.
Those who really make the political decisions.
Those who manipulate the media to influence and create "public opinion"
Those who fool us into thinking we know what's going on.
Those who create enemys and foes we can all fight against.
Those who have taken the power
Those who have no regard for people other than as "factors of production"
This is the flag of which Marx foretold.
This is the flag which will "unite' all nations.
You have nothing to lose but your rights and your human dignity.

This is the real America!
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ This is the real God!

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ save us all.

Am having a somewhat gloomy day today

You'd never have guessed!

much harder than i thought

I really need to no reason to post a picture of Emmanuelle Beart.... star of the wonderful manon de sources, the follow up movie to the wonderful Jean de Florette.

I have a bit more empathy eith those guys after spending the entire day filming for the promotional DVD, god it was so much tougher than i ever thought....

if i had to do it again i would have prepared and rehearsed a lot more thoroughly...but like all the stuff...hell i got through it..we will have to wiat and see what the quality emerges like... buut it felt ok..

The GAA work is driving me nuts at the moment, the smart thing would have been to just up and out last decemeber, but now that i am there for another year...there's no point playing the martyr.... let's just get on with it.