Wednesday, August 17, 2005

The Tipping Point



You could do a lot worse than read this book, Its been a while since I read it, but since that time I have noticed that the explanations in the book explain a lot of stuff in my own life.

A tipping point is a bit like the straw that broke the camels back, except that a tipping point can work both ways,

For example, when things are going badly and one more bad thing happens, then that extra thing can tipp the balance and help you to start doing something to help yourself, 12 step programmes call this "rock bottom" thats one end of the scale.

At the other end of the scale things can be going so well, that we almost lose the run of ourselves, and then we can push some form of self destruct button (probably cos we dont really feel we "deserve" to have things going that well in the first place) and tipp the scales that send us back to bad form again.

It is like sitting in an untidy room reading a book, at some point the room is going to become just untidy enough that you cannot stick it any longer and actually get your arse up and tidy the place (that last teacup was the tipping point)

Or someone in a relationship that is going so bloody well that it just has to be tested, so it is.... everybody has thier tipping points.

Mine are a bit far apart...... i move from place to place fairly slowly, things getting better and better slowly until I am compelled to throw a spanner in the works......and when I do...I will wallow for a while in the self pity and misery until it gets bad enough to actually get up and do something about it, then I am back onto a roll again.....things getting better and better until.....

it is an interesting book......well worth a read.....why small things really really matter!

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Why am I so Gloomy


Am sitting here wondering what the hell is wrong with me.

Ive just gotten my new car.
Ive had a new patio built.
We had the lovliest holiday

and yet i feel really gloomy, is it being back at work, is it all the money i spent, im not sure.

A friend asked me today about all the dreams I had when I was starting this business, and I have to admit, Im not spending enough time doing work that really inspires me, Im taking the work that pays best and have been for the last number of months.

I think I have the balance wrong, I want t0o get in around the schools and the sports stuff again, I know i have to do all the other stuff to pay the bills (and I really enjoy it too) its just that there is no buzz as good as pushing the edges, and to be fair i have been playing safe for too long now.

so this Autumn is the pushing the boat out season.

I will keep you posted on here.

I really enjoyed the break, the Aran Islands are lovely and we got smashing weather.

Now back to that boat pushing

Friday, August 12, 2005

Club V County



County
Club

Am distracted

This decision caused me a fierce amount of grief over the last week, I had to choose whether to play for the Rossies in an All Ireland semi - final or turn out for the club in a championship game. Think I did the right thing, but unfortunately both teams lost by two points,

tis tough but then my wife did point out a few things about duty, Ive never been too strong on duty, so am glad i follwed my head rather than my heart on this one

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Love this!



I got a virus.... a computer type one...hence I have not blogged for nearly a week.

Much has happened, but one of the highlights was seeing this whilst stuck in a huge traffic jam on friday last in Sligo. (Have a very sad life really)

I have finally started my book and am making good progress, this one will be a cracker, I have much more confidence in my writing ability over the last while... everybody needs a bit of encouragement.

The biggest thing this last week was the IRA announcement, wow... what a historic day.... now that the baseball bat is gone from Sinn Fein politics I have to face the dilemma of forever sitting on the fence or becoming actively involved and standing up for the stuff I believe in and have been boring people with for ages.

Im getting a new car this week.....woohoo..... had the lovliest day on Saturday last.... family...friends....fun..... Sligo got beaten but we had a brilliant day.

so what else..... my head is good.... not clear exactly but good....am going on holidays for a few weeks.... carlow.... aran islands....belfast.... that sort of thing.... and Im strangly nervous about it.

Will I be bored senseless, Will I miss the buzz of work, Will I be able to stay away from laptops and mobliles and switch off for a while. My ideal holiday is a holiday from everything....me and a blank notebook and a island... (and one person to make tea, but never talk).

I will do that holiday (probably without the teamaker) in October or November, and I plan to enjoy this one coming up....... I am sure Ill get in the spirit of it in few days.